So I have news for guys who think that making a girl jealous is the way to her heart! IT'S NOT!!! I don't understand why you would think cuddling or making out with another girl in front of the girl you are supposedly in love with would make it so she would fall in love with you. Trust me on this one. I had a friend try this on me this weekend. He was sitting there cuddling with a girl and all it did was make me see why I don't want to date him. However, if your going to try and make a girl jealous you might as well make it obvious. Another guy was supposedly trying to make me jealous that same night and all he did was sit and talk with my friend. I didn't even notice. My friends boyfriend had to point it out to me. So here is my advice. If you like a girl, tell her!! Or at least ask her out or show interest in her. If you try and make her jealous it's not going to bennifit you. It'll just confuse her. The guy that I didn't even notice trying to make me jealous would have been better off if he had spent time just talking to me and showing his interest in me. I like him, and was wondering if he likes me, but his behavior did not give me much to go by. Gosh.....and they say that girls are complicated!

I need a new right side!

I think my body is just falling apart. Specifically the right side. First, there is my ankle. I am going to need surgery to fix the problem. I have what is called Impingments of the ankle joint. This is where the soft tissues in my ankle are being pinched by the joint. This is very common in ballet dancers because of wearing pointe shoes. My doctor says that the type of impingement that I have is usually only seen in ballet pointe dancers. So I guess I am a prime candidate for this. Second, my hip cracks every time I been and straighten my knee, or lift my legs. Not so sure what that is. And lastly, and the most funny, I think I sprained my hand or something. Today at work I thought it would be fun to play freeze dance with the kids in the main room. I got out the scarves and was showing the kids what to do with them when i hit my hand extremely hard against the door to the shelf the scarves were stored in. I felt quite stupid. My hand started to swell immediatly. I had to go get ice, which I kept on my hand for about 2 hours. It was really hard to work with the ice on my hand. Anyway, my hand still hurts but I am typing this so that is a good sign right!

Something else I'd like to talk about is this change in the was the YSA wards in the Salt Lake area. My stake, Salt Lake University 7th stake, and my ward, Salt Lake University 44th ward, are now disolved. I am now apart of the Draper YSA stake. Tomorrow I will go to my first stake conference in this stake and we will find out what the ward boundaries are. I was really upset about this at first. I liked my ward and enjoyed the fact that I wasn't with the same people in the same area that I grew up in. It was nice to get to know people that went to Jordan, Brighton, or Hilcrest, instead of just Alta Draper people. However, I never have doubted that this is what Heavenly Father wants. I know that wards will come and go, but the gosple of Jesus Christ is true no matter where you are. That is my testimony. All good things must come to an end....but better things are waiting just around the corner. When God closes a door, he always opens a window. So even though I am sad to see the old ward go, I will go to the stake conference with faith and confidence in my Heavenly Father. This will be a good change. No matter who is or isn't in my ward.

"Don't put your eggs in one basket"

Have you ever experienced those days where you are just not yourself. You don't seem motivated to do anything that you normally have no problem doing. How is it that something that can bring you so much joy can also be what is causing the most pain and heartache. What do they mean when they say, "Don't put your eggs in one basket." What do you do when you finally realize that you do not have all the answers? These are some of the things I have been thinking about lately.
It's really hard to wake up in the morning every day and one of the first thoughts you have is, "How am I going to make it through the day?" That is definitely a bad sign. So you drag yourself out of bed, after your alarm clock has been going off for an hour at every 9 minutes or so. Eventually you get to school and then sit in class and you know that all that is being said is going in one ear and out the other. It's hard to make anything feel important. You make it to your next class, which in my case is ballet. The day continues on this way and some how you manage to finish your day and end up home ready to go to bed and start the whole thing over the next day.
I love to perform. Over the summer I performed in the show Guys and Dolls. My mother told me that I'm the happiest when I am performing, and I guess that is true. I enjoy it so much. I don't even know how to describe how it makes me feel. I used to think that it was just dance that I enjoyed to perform, however, I have come to realize that there is more to life then dance. Being a dance major I have found that what I once loved and used as "an out" is now what I need "an out" from. A friend of mine once told me that when you start performing as your job it starts to not be as much fun. It stops being what you do for enjoyment and becomes what you do to put food on the table. In my case, dance has become what I am studying in school, therefore becoming more like a job. It is something I am supposed to be doing instead of what I do for enjoyment.
Here is were the "Eggs in one basket" thought comes in. I totally know what this means. It is important to have balance in ones life. If there is too much of one thing, even if it is a good thing, it can be harmful. If someone loves carrots, but eats carrots at every meal every day for several months, eventually that person is going to get sick of carrots and maybe even decide they will never eat a carrot again. That isn't good because carrots are actually good for you. If the person had slowed down a bit and added broccoli or green beans in their diet they may still enjoy the carrots. I believe that I need to apply this concept into my life. I need to find a good balance. I am excited for my new job. It isn't dance related and I thing that is a very good thing for me right now. It has helped me realize that I do enjoy doing things that do not involve dance! I need to develop new hobbies and new talents. I need to discover who I am. The world does not need another dancer. The world needs me. And i need to find out who that is.

Is this how I start?

So I have never wanted to start a blog before. I always said it was sort of dumb, however, I am now eating my own words. I really can't tell you why I decided to give this a shot. It just seemed like something I should give a try. I know this is really boring right now. I'm really not this bad of a writer. I actually secretly love to write. Stories, poems, lyrics to songs. I guess one reason I decided to start a blog is because of my secret love for writing. I thought it could be a nice place to sit and write.
Today was the LDS Women's conference. I really loved President Thomas S. Monson's talk. He talked about not judging others. Not by their looks or by the silly, dumb things they do. It is not our place to judge them. We are not perfect ourselves. This talk made me take a step back from my life and ask myself how many times a day I judge people or criticise someone for something i really have no business doing. It's true that we do not know the circumstances others have in their lives. I wish I could say that I have not judged people in my life. However, saying such a thing would be completely false. I guess I just have to work on making myself a better person. To focus on loving those around me and seeing the good, instead of seeing the negative things. Mother Teresa (Via President Thomas S. Monson) said, "If you judge people, you have no time to love them." If we choose now to love those around us, then it will be easier to not judge or criticise them.
Anyway, I know this probably isn't a very good post. I've never done one, and at the same time I am very tired. It was a very long and tiring day. 3 and a half hours of teaching in the morning. Then rushing off to the What a Women Wants show with my mom, sister, and sister in law. And then quickly driving off to Lifetime Fitness to work in the Child Center for 4 hours. Then coming home to watch the Women's conference. Very busy, but all so worth it! I can honestly say that I love my job's! I may not love the craziness that sometimes surrounds it, but the kids are wonderful!